Sugar Crash.

A sugar crash or glucose crash is the term used in American popular culture to refer to a supposed sense of fatigue after consuming a large quantity of carbohydrates.

Whip up a figurative rendition of that, and you've got what just happened to me. After thinking how nice my summer was turning out, I suddenly fell through the thin ice I've been creating and into the freezing water. Ironic, considering it's the hot season.

Recently, although it started quite a while back, I've honestly been a bad friend. I've loosened ties with some people, and detached myself from many things just so I can lessen the things I think of, as I felt the need to do so. I was having a hard time balancing everything, so I took selfish, drastic measures. If you've noticed that I've been different lately, or haven't been able to talk to you much, I really am sorry. It's not only a few who have been taking this kind of crap for me, but quite a lot. I gave up, and just chose to escape the problems instead of giving a greater effort to handle things. Well now, the not-caring thing is doing bad to keep me happy. Even if I don't have much to worry about, it's been hitting me over and over that I've done a bad thing to even consider taking such an action just to better myself. Now I'm different, and I somewhat want the old me back. At least I cared more about people's feelings. Working my way back will be very difficult. Just give me time, I'm trying to change all of this.

That's not all, I've been giving up here and there just because things take too much effort. Freaking lazy bum of a person, I don't even get up to do things I want to do just because it's so much more difficult than doing nothing. I'm a quitter, escapist and am too lazy to change it.

Now I that I know what's wrong, I just hope to act upon it. Hopefully, I don't just get stuck on hoping. And there goes a loop that'll take one hell of a push to get out of. Time to change those "am"s to "was"s, and "hope"s to "will"s. I can do it.

.MrRobby.
Darn.

Waterfall.

The only reason that I used that title is because it's raining right now. =)) I have no other reason to do it, since this is an entry on the awesomeness of summer so far.

My days since the last post, especially the past 3 days, just cut the cake- the cake of boringness, that is, and gave it all away for the recent happenings to eat.

I won't even go to details with this post, 'cause that will probably just bore you. :P

In the past week, I reacquainted myself with things from YEARS ago such as a show that had me screaming and slapping my lap all throughout just because it bleeds with coolness, the act of eating bowl-fulls of ice cream without limiting myself, a sport I haven't played, an instrument (even just for a while) that I stopped playing because of my poor, non-persevering old self, and even going to a playground to have clean, inexpensive and simple fun. I can say that I really missed these things, because so much has changed since the last time I encountered these, but they still haven't lost their touch. They hit me the same way they did way back, and I'm glad this stands true. It's good to be able to tell yourself that you're not old enough to say that you need to forget your past because times have changed. Hahaha! I'm totally happy with the way I grew up, and that the bad times existed to make me just who I am today. :D

In the past week, I was able to spend time with people I value a LOT in my life! Of course, with my family during Sundays (and even everyday! JamLegend kasi eh. :)) ), and I really did enjoy my time with them. I tried a new thing last Sunday nga eh, to just let go of my phone for a longer time just to listen more to the people in my immediate environment. When we're out, I have the tendency to pull out my phone and text away, especially when bored. I just stopped this for a while, and it really felt different. Cool. X) And not only with my family, but also with my friends. A '11, YOU'RE THE BEST! Subic was so fun, we did so much even when we were just at the cottage we stayed in for the time we were there. The freedom we had was great, and no regrets having to spend that much money with you guys. AWESOME was in the air, water and sand. =)) Not limited to them, but also with my BLD Youth friends and others. :D

In the past week I just experienced so much that I'm thankful for. Sure, now that I have highpoints in my summer, the boring days will seem boring-er and there still are a lot of them left. But whatever happens... uhh. Hindi, mali pala. Walang ganun, negative thinking na yun eh. Hahaha! O, erase erase, sa "But" ulit tayo: But I know that there are still many good things in store for me this summer! AYUUUUUN. =))

On second thought, Waterfall could be interpreted to be relevant to my entry now. Piece it together, I won't elaborate for you, para may exercise naman yung utak mo. Hahaha! It's not that hard. :>

.MrRobby.
Thank you God, for the week that has been. X)

The Summer Paradox

Seriously, why is it that when it's summer, you always have too much time? That's probably why I don't like summer so much.

That's something you'll never hear from someone who's still enduring classes until now. Hahaha, exactly what the Summer paradox is. When it's summer, you look for things to do with that time. When it's not, you look for time to do things with. Maybe some never experience this, but I'm sure it's the greater majority who'll be able to relate with me.

It's kicking in, obviously. The summer attitude is sinking in already, despite this being only my second week of vacation. I only realized now that two weeks have already passed though, and that makes me quite sad. What have I done in that time? Nothing really significant, just enjoying all this free time here and there.

Makes me realize how ungrateful people can be though. I'm not one for reflective blogs (only because I don't like making them. :P) so let's keep this part short. It shows how a lot are never happy with the ground they stand upon. School people want out, they want summer's free time. Summer people want school, so they'll be preoccupied daily. On a greater scale, you can really see this attitude in many people. All the complaining, whining and wishing for more. Is anybody ever truly happy? I guess not. But that's not a problem. It's one thing to desire more for your life, but it's another to just stand there and be sad about it. You long for more? Work for it. Make it happen. That's the way to do things.

++++++++++

And there you go! Serious part's over. Hahaha. Seriously, this summer's been fun so far though. The above-mentioned feeling has only hit me on occasions, I'm not that sad about the two weeks. Most of the time, I think it's two well spent weeks. Just bumming out and relaxing may be a bad thing, but it's better than stressing out, right? So yeah, summer's been mostly great. :D

Late happy birthday (March 13) to Harvey! Special mention ka sa entry na 'to. :>

My summer cash has been bothering me. I don't have enough to last me close to three more months. =)) I wish I could stop spending and save up, but things to spend on just keep coming along. Argh. Hahaha!

That's it for now! I'm done here.
Mr. Robby's back, with a inner burning (Ow, ow, ow. =)) I think I stated that wrongly. :)) ) for writing!

.MrRobby.
Thank you, Mr. Hot Sun Above for causing people to run inside for shelter from you. =))))