Today, on another rare momentous yet stray initiative, I decided to study.
Is it because it's Tuesday again?
Most likely. But more importantly, exams begin tomorrow.
Once again, I must say that I really suck at reviewing and studying.
Whenever I try, I can always tell myself that I know the stuff I'm reviewing.
Turns out I need to know MORE about the stuff I already know.
Since it'll require a bit more pruning to find that "more", I get lazy.
And because I get lazy after TRYING to study, I can almost guiltlessly fool around.
Perfect.
So it ends up with me not doing any more than remembering some very small bits that I've forgotten.
It always happens.
The only time studying actually worked for me was when we were to have an AP LT on the next day on a
lesson I completely didn't learn about due to inattentiveness.
Luckily, that proved that I can study well when I don't know anything about the topic.
It helps me stay interested in actually going over stuff.
For a long test on something I didn't learn about from listening to the teacher,
41/50 is pretty good.
I really wish I had never started on this whole "being seriously lazy" ordeal, because laziness is one of the pits hardest to get out of.
You get stuck, you want out, but you can't be bothered to take action.
You sit in that hole, telling yourself that you reeeaaally want to get out.
But what do you do? You try to jump up once or twice to climb out, fail, and sit back down.
It's just too much effort for a lazy person to continue trying.
I hate such a fate, but hey, I brought it upon myself.
And I know blogging about it won't solve anything, I'm not expecting it to.
I want to change this part of me, but I can't.
Sitting in this hole IS convenient, after all.
Throwing things that can keep you busy while in that hole makes it even harder.